Decomposed
This is my discourse
on my discontent discontinuity
of thought and feeling
and I see no beauty
in self restraint.
Yet to you my love
never enough; your perfection extended
far past your reach
perhaps past your desire
to not be alone
I cannot help but see
the imperfect imperfections
dancing within my words;
to see everything
through jaded eyes
The sting of your kiss
still a vibrant sensation
teasing me playfully
at 4 am while I lie
unable to sleep
You were always there
through life’s tedious trivialities
yet your touch distant
your words somehow reserved
when I needed them the most
You first saw me and believed
my body bled of beauty; now
in your eyes, I rattle
only a broken music box,
your daily dose of discontentment.
=]
what's it~*
Sunday, January 23, 2005
troubled waters
stirred emotions.. X_X i'm both sad and happy. happy that i'm free from work, sad that i didnt have enough time to know my expo friends enough. think that i'm gonna miss that place real lots. met real nice friends there. haha. hmm.. gotta know a bossom friends. really ablw to understand and all that kind.. yea. really hope that we all would have another chance of meeting.. haha. this time, i'm making sure that i'm taking pics of them. ^^ really hope that everything would be nice and good for them. blesses.
-_- argh.. dammit. still cant sign into the damn msn messenger.. condemn u msn!! i condemn u!!
hmm.. next is hope that i can find a job really soon. best is before chinese new year.. then.. hope that could know more friends.. haha. social interaction. ^^V cos if i were to have a new job.. new people i'll be working with.. then.. to make my life easier.. friends are really in need. haha. "P
yep yep, i blogged because it my last day.. and.. for.. commemoration. just gotta say it that i'll never forget my first job.. and my first working friends. haha.
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Saturday, January 08, 2005
troubled waters
hee.. finally blogged after some ultra-long time.. i think i'm only spurt to blog when something special happens.. hee.. ok.. back to what i was about to say.. [title] I GOT GILLIAN'S MAIL!! muahahaha... soooo happy!! ^^V geex.. gotta think of something to reply.. but then, nothing practically happened.. -_-"' bleah. today went out with my mom and sis.. but that was after i painted my house.. yellow [?!] pale moon yellow. my house is now a playhouse.. ^^V all lego color.. -_-"' back to outside thingy. went to tpy.. ate do shopping.. bought a little too much?!.. iu think. hee.. i love my MOM!! ^^ but then.. my pay give you can dont take too much? hee...
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Saturday, January 01, 2005
troubled waters
yip yip hurray!! i'm home already!! LOL. gosh.. i'm so full!! LOL. went to turf city for family gathering today.. had our reunion dinner of course. 19 people were there.. cost child, $6 adult, $12. it was so worth it!! LOL. all cousins were crowding at one table.. and.. eating.. laughing.. had two stomach-filling rounds.. i'm pleased with the amount of food ate. but not with the calories i have to burn.. -_-"' dammit.
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Sunday, December 26, 2004
troubled waters
muahahaha!! i went to the cosplay event today! damn it!! why cant i get a digicam?! damn it!! i missed out so many nice photos..!! hmm.. i swear to get it as soon as possible!! hmm.. anyways.. went to singapore expo today after ann's church thing along with pecky. we thought there wasnt an event when we were there.. 'cos the place was sooooo far away. and.. on the other level. had to walk right to the end of the place then go up one level..[ mad.] hmm.. admission fees was $12. gosh.. my cash!! met a girl from nayang high school.. tai xue yi. haha. cute girl. gosh! i forgot to buy from her!! my notepad!! :'( lt's see if i can ask her to save one for me.. those were so cute!! my horoscope notepad.. haiz. sorry xueyi!! really!! ann also registered to enter the drawing competition. but, we left even before the results were announced. -_-"' [LOL] went to far east after that.. searched all over for that place.. till.. i asked the security guard where the hell is concourse A. WOW. i think he was asked many times before.. 'cos he didnt say anything but pointed the direction we should head. [LOL]
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Thursday, December 23, 2004
troubled waters
P.S: i'm gonna be emotionaly unstable from e 2 fanfics i'm reading these few days k.
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004
troubled waters
hmm.. first thing i want to say.. thanks you to gillian chew long szu.. who came "early morning" to wake me up.. and came over to see me STILL in my pjs and say.. "haha. xi guan liao." then when i complained.. she goes "ho ho ho.. it's already after noon." WOW. LOL. but.. really thanks lar.. big friend. thank you for coming personally to give me my belated present.. then ask me to continue to be "sotong"... you mei you gao cuo.. you go continue to be your "xiao zhu" ba.. LOL.. :P nextly.. IS.. that i've got the JOB!! LOL. no more rotting at home.. anymore!! LOL. i love you, Robinsons!! LOL. yippy.. gonig for the briefing on 28 dec.then.. it's to buying my working attire lo.. LOL. congrates.. ^^V
PS: till next time lo.. LOL.
*4:13 PM
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004
troubled waters
la la.. it's already 14dec, and i'm here to blog on 11dec. how slow.. LOL. 11dec. my birthday. haha. 16th of age. i was out to look for a job with some members of bos inc. some might be thinking.. "hmm? what about your birthday celebrations?" i've celebrated it the previous day.. hee.. really have to thank ALL MEMBERS of bo inc. hmm.. thank you janice mummy.. jy.. limin.. u-noe-who [lj, tanny].. hmm.. my mom, er.. teckie jie/di/mei/kor [still haven got e facts rite] and my biological sis. ya. haha. ^^V 10Q!! may blessing be with you!!
PS: SEE!! i blogged. enough of it. bleah.
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