troubled waters

sighs* last day of work..

2005-01-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

stirred emotions.. X_X i'm both sad and happy. happy that i'm free from work, sad that i didnt have enough time to know my expo friends enough. think that i'm gonna miss that place real lots. met real nice friends there. haha. hmm.. gotta know a bossom friends. really ablw to understand and all that kind.. yea. really hope that we all would have another chance of meeting.. haha. this time, i'm making sure that i'm taking pics of them. ^^ really hope that everything would be nice and good for them. blesses.

-_- argh.. dammit. still cant sign into the damn msn messenger.. condemn u msn!! i condemn u!!

hmm.. next is hope that i can find a job really soon. best is before chinese new year.. then.. hope that could know more friends.. haha. social interaction. ^^V cos if i were to have a new job.. new people i'll be working with.. then.. to make my life easier.. friends are really in need. haha. "P

yep yep, i blogged because it my last day.. and.. for.. commemoration. just gotta say it that i'll never forget my first job.. and my first working friends. haha.

yippy~ i got gil's mail~!!

2005-01-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

hee.. finally blogged after some ultra-long time.. i think i'm only spurt to blog when something special happens.. hee.. ok.. back to what i was about to say.. [title] I GOT GILLIAN'S MAIL!! muahahaha... soooo happy!! ^^V geex.. gotta think of something to reply.. but then, nothing practically happened.. -_-"' bleah. today went out with my mom and sis.. but that was after i painted my house.. yellow [?!] pale moon yellow. my house is now a playhouse.. ^^V all lego color.. -_-"' back to outside thingy. went to tpy.. ate do shopping.. bought a little too much?!.. iu think. hee.. i love my MOM!! ^^ but then.. my pay give you can dont take too much? hee...

i like family gatherings to be of feasting!!

2005-01-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

yip yip hurray!! i'm home already!! LOL. gosh.. i'm so full!! LOL. went to turf city for family gathering today.. had our reunion dinner of course. 19 people were there.. cost child, $6 adult, $12. it was so worth it!! LOL. all cousins were crowding at one table.. and.. eating.. laughing.. had two stomach-filling rounds.. i'm pleased with the amount of food ate. but not with the calories i have to burn.. -_-"' dammit.

it's special today.

2004-12-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

muahahaha!! i went to the cosplay event today! damn it!! why cant i get a digicam?! damn it!! i missed out so many nice photos..!! hmm.. i swear to get it as soon as possible!! hmm.. anyways.. went to singapore expo today after ann's church thing along with pecky. we thought there wasnt an event when we were there.. 'cos the place was sooooo far away. and.. on the other level. had to walk right to the end of the place then go up one level..[ mad.] hmm.. admission fees was $12. gosh.. my cash!! met a girl from nayang high school.. tai xue yi. haha. cute girl. gosh! i forgot to buy from her!! my notepad!! :'( lt's see if i can ask her to save one for me.. those were so cute!! my horoscope notepad.. haiz. sorry xueyi!! really!! ann also registered to enter the drawing competition. but, we left even before the results were announced. -_-"' [LOL] went to far east after that.. searched all over for that place.. till.. i asked the security guard where the hell is concourse A. WOW. i think he was asked many times before.. 'cos he didnt say anything but pointed the direction we should head. [LOL]

-_-"'

2004-12-23T17:14:00.000+08:00

P.S: i'm gonna be emotionaly unstable from e 2 fanfics i'm reading these few days k.

WOW!! i DID blog.. k...

2004-12-22T16:13:00.000+08:00

hmm.. first thing i want to say.. thanks you to gillian chew long szu.. who came "early morning" to wake me up.. and came over to see me STILL in my pjs and say.. "haha. xi guan liao." then when i complained.. she goes "ho ho ho.. it's already after noon." WOW. LOL. but.. really thanks lar.. big friend. thank you for coming personally to give me my belated present.. then ask me to continue to be "sotong"... you mei you gao cuo.. you go continue to be your "xiao zhu" ba.. LOL.. :P nextly.. IS.. that i've got the JOB!! LOL. no more rotting at home.. anymore!! LOL. i love you, Robinsons!! LOL. yippy.. gonig for the briefing on 28 dec.then.. it's to buying my working attire lo.. LOL. congrates.. ^^V

PS: till next time lo.. LOL.

ya ya.. i WILL update frequently..

2004-12-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

la la.. it's already 14dec, and i'm here to blog on 11dec. how slow.. LOL. 11dec. my birthday. haha. 16th of age. i was out to look for a job with some members of bos inc. some might be thinking.. "hmm? what about your birthday celebrations?" i've celebrated it the previous day.. hee.. really have to thank ALL MEMBERS of bo inc. hmm.. thank you janice mummy.. jy.. limin.. u-noe-who [lj, tanny].. hmm.. my mom, er.. teckie jie/di/mei/kor [still haven got e facts rite] and my biological sis. ya. haha. ^^V 10Q!! may blessing be with you!!

PS: SEE!! i blogged. enough of it. bleah.

dun think i've got tt..

2004-12-07T01:14:00.000+08:00

hmm.. give some thought regarding that motorola job. dont think i'll get it. lj told me that peien got the job already and starting to work. peien got in with connections.. hah. lucky. well.. have to give up on that job and find a new one.. going on later at noon. lj's mom's friend [i think] introduced. so.. left with the rest of the detailed to be made known.. gosh! bless i'll get to work soon!! i dont want to be left at home with my sis.. tired of her nagging away.. yucks. LOL. report at night then.. just wish me luck!!

i'm back since yesterday 5plus.

2004-12-06T23:00:00.000+08:00

back from genting highlands.. LOL. contented with everything except one. damn u machine! how come only operate on the day i was leaving?! -vomits out blood- hee.. knew this friend of my dad.. uncle andrew. LOL. mr. kan jiong.. on the day we're leaving.. my dad reminded him to be out of the casino by 10am. but.. by 10.20am.. he's still in there. conclusion, we're late for the bus. and we've got a bus full of people staring at us.. -embarrassed- LOL. this uncle andrew ah.. very funny de.. will joke around.. hmm.. back to the themepark.. well.. seriously speaking.. hell i dont know why were the people screaming off their heads on those rides.. i was expecting a thrilling sensation out of the "Space Tower". you would think that it's very thrilling due to people screaming out.. but.. when i was on it.. i was thinking.. how come people are screaming away for something not thrilling? i dont get it. perhaps it isnt thrilling enough for me.. and plus.. i rode that machine alone. my dad and sis were to afraid to ride on..."' i excuse my dad.. he isnt that young anyway.. but my sis?! -_-"' she was already screaming away on cyclone. [machine close to the Panasonic @ Escape but outdoor kind. u can see the sunlight and fog.] one thing people might thought we're mad. at genting.. my dad and i were eating ice cream.. without jacket and clad in short sleeves plus at the temperature of 15 degrees celcius. WOW~! loved that feeling. [gosh!! please dad!! bring me to genting again in june 2005!! i wanna try out the new "Fly" and corkscrew!! and that "Fun kart." argh.. god bless.. just let me play and enjoy it for once!] LOL. and here.. i apologise openly. gomen bo inc. i didnt get you guys anything from genting.. sorry!! hmm.. connection is still bad.. so.. i guess i'll continue typing.. LOL. hmm.. disgusting stuffs happened on the day we returned.. and that gave my mom a hard time. [PS. sis.. u noe lar.. LOL. sick rite?] hmm.. dont think i'll elaborate on that. it'll give me a hard time too.. LOL. returned home and only rest at close to 4am. slept too much on the bus..."'

leaving soon..!!

2004-12-03T05:34:00.000+08:00

5.40am. ready to set off. bye bye lo.

nv once regreted..

2004-12-02T13:02:00.000+08:00

la dah..!! hmm.. guess that i wont be blogging in a few days.. rather i havent been blogging lately. leaving singapore on 3rd dec. BUT~!! i'll be back on 5dec. hey guys.. dont miss me too much.. haha. going to fill up the application form to work at motorola.. just hope that i'll get that job. that's all.. any news.. i'll be back to report. :P bye guys.

it's after prom.

2004-11-26T01:38:00.000+08:00

-yawn- ah.. its finally after the prom night!! but hey!! i dont want it to end that fast!! gosh.. aiya. was so late for the prom!! missed the lucky draw and dinner!! but hey.. didnt mind that much though.. i had my share of dancing to the music!! people there was so high!! woot!! hmm.. having the bbq tomorrow.. hmm.. gotta wake up early... "' nites.

yipee~!! i'm so happy!!

2004-11-23T20:46:00.000+08:00

haha. woot!! we patched up!! yeah!! happy happy happy!! thriple happy!! hmm.. have as lj said.. zhi bao bu zhu huo.. haiz.. mei de wan le.. >.< haha. going out tml..

hard to let go...

2004-11-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

the last day of the o levels.. so.. it's finally finished. but.. can i be free? i'm afraid no.. stuffs have been bothering me.. cant really concentrate in anything. i've always wanted to ask you this.. but.. i just cant be direct enough. just wanted to ask if you treat your friends like that? say something so spiteful and hurting as if we were never once friends? i was glad that you made up your mind about something but i hope that we will be like what we wereonce before. even if you decicided to leave.. i just want to ask.. have you given it a deep thought and followed your heart told you to? if you have madea solid resolution, i wish that you'll find better friends than us. signing off with best wishes to you.. gd luck.

we saw maia today @ livia!!

2004-11-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

LOL.. saw maia lee from the singapore idol today at far east.. muahaha.. got that dress from shibuya.. $40 minus 10cents.. what the~!! haha.. but all thanks to my mom who sponsored me.. haha.. cash-wise.. LOL. still got last paperS on 22nov.. hmm.. odd thing happened huh..?! our dnt teachers are going to organize a buffet [i think] on that day too.. for sec 4e,f, 5a,b,c.. wow... haha. dont know what they'll be offering as the food.. 9.30am.. (wat can we eat at tt timing??) argh.. siam already.

happy birthday to u!!

2004-11-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

happy birthday, ann!! haha.. went out with ann andpecky today.. to.. anywhere.. haha. hadnt decided where to go before we left.. just thought that we'll alight at Doby Ghaut then.. walk on.. we'll go anywhere our legs took us.. haha.. ^^ 1st stop.. is e Heerens. hmm.. somehow.. felt that Heerens is soooo boring!! we even saw "buttcheecks" being managed by a man!! what the?~ hmm.. left the place when we thought that far east wouldbe better.. haha. odd minds.. hmm.. Shibuya was having discount.. place a deposit for a dress.. nice on.. haha. indian cotton.. and.. i can run in it!! LOL. hmm.. going to that prom.. casually.. LOL.

.............."'

2004-11-19T10:56:00.000+08:00

hmm.. havent been updating recently.. and okay.. "my blog hasnt died.. k?" haha. [for ann] seriously.. dont know what to update.. for god's sake.. there's only one thing i want to say.. let us be like my blogskin.. k? ^^

Our Jewel.

2004-11-11T01:01:00.000+08:00

Years and generations,
Time had ran too fast.
Some remained same,
Though most changed.

Bidding goodbyes,
To childhood years.
Yet one thing stayed alive,
The tears and smiles we shared.
Our friendship we cared,
Our jewel in the Heart.

Can't rewind our ages,
But to revive its traces.
All things we shared,
In our hearts they embrace.
Thus, thank the gods,
For our friendship will last.

more and more boring..."'

2004-11-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

gosh.. its the second time i feel coming online so boring.. hmm.. waiting for my geography exam.. and i have quite a long "break" between.. argh.. sian. hmm.. going offline already.. -_-"'~

chem tml..."'

2004-11-08T20:06:00.000+08:00

LOL.. all thanks to lj.. i finally got to understand oxidation state better. ^^ hmm.. after emath today.. went to lj's house.. and saw wawa again.. gosh!! she is soooo cute!! haha. lj taught me oxidation state.. revised some chem. [wawa asleep.. cant play with her.] wawa finally woke up and we're playing.. (wawa mei mei oh...~!! ^^) tanny and i were asking lj for photos of lm, lh and her when they were young.. wawa looks soo like her er jie!! and gosh.. i cant seem to get it who is who when theywere young... "' i mistook so many times somebody for a girl.. LOL. he DOES look like a girl k!! hmm.. it was raining already when tanny and i were heading home.. wawa cried.. next time must sayang her.. that "xiao ke ai~!!"

PS: wish me luck for tml!! its chem~! XP

online!!

2004-11-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

yeah~!! i'm finally online and updating. LOL. took my stuck up Literature papers today. perhaps my unseen poem and susan hill is okay.. but i know for sure that my twelfthnight is a total flunk. haha. i was scribbling in crap into the precious lined paper. gosh oh gosh. heck heck heck. hectic!! argh.. tired.. i need to rest.. i'm all lazybones already. i've been going to bed at around 10pm this few days.. hmm.. that sleep worm is coming...
PS: to amath ppl!! jia you wor~!!

sneaking...*

2004-10-30T01:25:00.000+08:00

geex.. managed to sneak online.. LOL. hmm.. the lazy me is lazy to update and wont be updating till 22Nov 04. argh. many would know the reason why.. it's the O's. hmm.. dont miss me that much kays? haha. the first paper is starting on 2nov then follow on with tedious working here and there. [just hope that the social studies paper wont be that difficult!!] hmm.. got a special thing yesterday.. hee.. i promise that it'll be my lucky charm and when it's with me.. you [guys] are with me too.. ^^ A PROMISE WHICH WILL NOT BE FORGOTTEN. geex.. have to get back to studying already. bye~ till 22nov~ ^^ ja-ne. "P

almost late,, again..

2004-10-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

LOL. almost late again for tuition.. and went to buy comic book.. so made me late.. ^^"' not a good reason to be late.. hmm.. went to see "manga" today.. haha. [u noe de..] hmm.. i blur blur.. dont even know if i got to the correct place.. haha. cant and wont go over to pecky's place.. will see that baichi/ stupid bubble. *pui!!* LOL. tanny's inner side, lower arm was scratched.. gosh.. pain~!! hmm.. after the messy stuffs.. headed over to compass point.. so noisy.. ~~"' then went back home.. kinda "too free" huh.. ^^"'

P.S: JIA YOU LE BUDDIES~!

forgive me..

2004-10-27T08:57:00.000+08:00

theres' always a start in everything. a beginning of a relationship or a friendship. geez. the bo's sisters should know what i'm saying.. ya..? ^^ haha.. when entering a relationship, the worst things are that you have to be teased by your closer friends.. haha.[ go-men ANN!!] we know what you need from him.. and we try not to make you "get away" from him... LOL. argh.. haikiat came along yesterday to the studying session. [ke lian de pecky..] yaya.. haikiat was stucked with pecky for a period of time.. cos tanny and i were having tuition.. [rushed to sAvE~ u. LOL] took some photos with tanny's digicam.. LOL. like "zhi lian kuang".. ^^"' hmm.. blogging early.. maybe dont have time to blog later at night.. hee..^^

stretches

2004-10-25T20:20:00.000+08:00

ah... so long since i last updated. LOL. hee.. had my hair cut today. it's pretty fine.. except when its dried. lotsa fLyawayyy hair. yucks. ~~"' well, tanny, pecky, lj and i went to the hair saloon today.. when only tanny and me is getting the cut. ^^"' one for all, all for one.. hee. [geez, dun like ur hairstyle? trim botak lor. LOL. (jY)] haiz.. ann didnt came along today.. so sad. why does it have to be that one of us wouldnt be there somehow.. [-sad- :'( ] after that, went to jun's place. [wawa ah!! jie jie like u a lot.. but then also dun have to leak ur xu3 xu4 on me de ma!!] guess you know what happened.. wawa.. so cute!! aiyo.. love you soo much!! muacks!! oh yes! have tuition on tomorrow.. then going off to changi airport again.. god.. going there for.. so many times already to study. but hey! it's a good place where i can really concentrate!! BK. come and find me if you wanna study.. hee. ^^ but i wont be studying alone.. and ya! wont be having much time to come online already.. so... hee.. dont know. contact me by any other means. ^^

tired...

2004-10-23T20:56:00.000+08:00

ah.. slacked today.. very tired.. too much infomation inside my brain!! much remember selectively. LOL. hmm.. slept well yesterday.. but very late for the day before and yesterday... slept at almost 4am. bleahz. well.. yesterday, janice mummy and yuany said that my kind of studying is deteriorating my health.. oopsy.. changing already k... ^^ had proper meals today.. dont know for tomorrow.. ^^"' hmm.. have to get down to serious studying tomorrow. waking up already. it's my life.

late late late!!

2004-10-22T20:33:00.000+08:00

god oh god.. first time i'm sooo late for tuition!! but a good thing is that christie came 10minutes late too.. LOL. i arrived before her.. by only one minute? just lucky.. hmm.. pecky came along to tanny's house today.. sorry had to make her wait for us, inside the computer room for over 2 hours.. headed over to the changi airport after that.. today was a bit special though.. i took the bus to the mrt station before paya lebar.. not sure how is that station's name was spelt... god.. i lost 2kg already.. hadnt ate much for 2 days.. just a large coke light.. it lasted me the whole day.. skipped most of my meals already.. dont shock when you see me, i'm gonna be sooo skinny le.. chum.. haiz.. must work it out somehow!!

changi airport...

2004-10-21T21:28:00.000+08:00

LOL. as said from previous entry.. i went to singapore's changi airport today.. hee.. today only pecky, tanny and me.. ^^ hmm.. took lotsa photos using their digicam. muahaha. a pity that ann didnt came along.. haiz.. must be enjoying her time with her zack kor.. LOL. the Bo's know who he is.... but.. how come the pics taken at the certain close off section so blur one...?!? haiz.. when we saw the photos from the cam.. it was pretty okay what.. how come on PC sooooo blur de?? haiz.. never mind.. i'll go changi airport again tomorrow!! hmph! ^geex.. tuition again tml^

love is arnd e corner~*

2004-10-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

hee.. somebody complained i never update wor.. and never mention name.. LOL. ha. yuany!! for you de k. thank you being there!! love you.~* muacks* ^^.. hmm.. hadnt update for several days already. :P even though i'm online everyday for long hours, i cant seem to think what to write in.. [oopsy.] hmm.. [and just to mention, HaIkIat, get your damn arse off that thick lead block!! you're breaking it!! LOL. felt tt way~ ^^] hmm.. getting into some serious studying. or rather HAVE TO. need to "jia you" for my o's already. (prays tt o's r easy..) and today's yeeping's birthday, so i'm here. *shouts* HAPPY BIRTHDAY YP!! (ahbish!! *_* cut crap)

hmm.. going changi airport tomorrow.. for what(?) you might question. studying they say.. it's "more" quiet there? LOL. sign off~ report tomorrow. ^^ ja-ne..

finding love..

2004-10-17T01:58:00.000+08:00

hmm... past midnight and have my 2 girlfriends talking about love.. and sweethearts.. argh.. haiz.. what's with talking about it when it's still the o's? if want, find one after your o's. ^^maybe you first, maybe me first. you'll never know..

looking at the passing of time..

2004-10-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

argh.. some stupid thing going on or a few days.. dont reallky know what's hell wrong with my internet connection!! darn it! rang up the technical support of singnet yesterday. they said that they'll be monitoring my line.. haha. bullshit!! just hope that m line would be good and dont give me troubles.. then.. i'll sayang it.. haha. talking crap as usual.. blahs. ann and tan-y said before that my way of blogging was.. odd?? i dont know.. haha. i just typed out what i was thinking in "more" visible english? if i go "the other way" round.. they'll be questioning what hell or crap am i blunting at.. haha.. "blunting".. expected to have some vulgarities. :P *i hate the darn, F### IT WEATHER..!! SO DAMN WARM!!"

wow~!!

2004-10-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

what can i say.. its wednesday and guess how many people attended school from my class? an astonishing rate of ONLY 9!! wow! my god... but seriously speaking.. school is getting bored. nothing much to do today.. and.. argh.. my dnt artefact is way terrible~!! god oh god.. well.. it's gonna be the science practial for o's on next monday.. ah~!! so fast!! sigh.. graduating soon.. but hey! our class will remain in contact ya? CLASS UNITY! mUackS!

it's the O's already..

2004-10-11T14:50:00.000+08:00

haha.. it's been so fast. 4 years since i stepped into peicai seconday school. wasn't my first choice.. but isnt my last too. time for me to pass this exam and move on with life.. planned to chiong in studying and get the certificate with wonderous grades. (hope so.) gotta get my determination in and hold it right there.. well.. perhaps i wont be blogging from now.. have to concentrate in my studying.. 'till its over or when it gets too tough.. my blog will be with me! muacks~!

PS: i will love everything from now till the end of my life.

how far can we get?

2004-10-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

well.. topic today.. "How far can we get?" sound really stupid.. but hey~! we've gotta think of this some day right? so.. how about right now at this very second? well.. most of people would regard this as a very simple thing. cos the usual choices would be going to a JC then proceed on to a university either local or aboard. personally.. i would wanna get into some boring JC and strive. i'll be so BORED~!! choosing to enter poly anyway.. just hope to get into my choice!! hmm.. wonder what will my future career be? will i meet my friends at any occasion? haha. can i still recognise them by then? hope so..

song: FIREFLY

2004-10-07T21:04:00.000+08:00

When I said go I never meant away
You ought to know the freaky games we play
could you forgive and learn how to forget
hear me as I'm calling out your name
Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that your lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me
You and me we shared a mystery
we were so close like honey to the bee
And if you tell me how to make you understand
I'm minor in a major kinda way
Fly firefly through the skycome and play with my desire
don't be long don't ask whyI can't wait another night

prob.. :'(

2004-10-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

sitting in front of the monitor.. facing some friendship problems. i just really hope that we can pass this through and our bonding be even stronger. i believe our friendship isnt that fragile and our understanding that bad. it's only some big wind blowing sands into our eyes. WE WILL PASS THIS THROUGH!! and hey, we dontcare whether you're poor or filthy rich. friends together, friends forever. no matter what, you're still my friend. of everything you could lose, you're still my best friend.

FRENS FOR ONCE ISN'T SOMETHING TO BE NEGLECTED~

what goes next?

2004-10-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

showed hand today. well.. i dont know how she's feeling. but i know that kind of feeling wont be good. just hope she realises it. cos she'll be facing more of this as time comes.. either in jc or poly and even out at the society. i'm not complaining over minor stuffs put in majar kinda way.. cos.. its hell argh~!! i cant make her understand. and others have been sensing the problems. well.. this is the first BO-fight. we've gotta get through this no matter what.

i'm sorry..

2004-10-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

well.. some horrible day. changed my mind about that stink-off prom thingy. darn. they decided on class unity. and being damn loyal[??] to class unity and stufs as such.. ann and i real like... full bloomers. sure go that kind.. tried to talk peckhwaand tany round the whole damn day. well.. nothing good could happen after so long for sure. tany said that if i could ask 4 people namely, her mom, tzepeng, mingchien and haikiat to persuade her to go.. she'll consider. eventaully, i managed to ask them all.. even mingchien. surprisingly huh. haha. but really have to thank those who helped. especially tzepeng and txy's mom. really thanks~! BUT..[there's always a but after the gd part. argh!] she still didnt want to go.. god i've given up already. trying to MAke her go is so damn hard. the worst comes after the bad.. we got into a verbal fight. well.. as in.. sometimes she says things which contradicts herself. hmm... forget about it then. tried to make her understand whats for real and all.. but.. ann and i failed. branded FAILURE. well.. we cantforce it into somebody ya.. so.. have to apologise to tan xinyi. i may have made you angry and all.. but.. i just want you to know that we're doing this so that we can have an enjoyable time together. i believe that we should treasure whatever freetime we have now. as.. after now, we're stepping onto different paths. each road leading to anywhere. perhaps our paths would cross, but.. till when? not that i'm being pessimistic, i really feel that knowing the value of treasuring is the best thing i've ever learnt. so.. please appreciate.

why?

2004-10-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

i've alway been thinking of why is it so that people like cooking up troubles then try to figure it out? isnt that making their life even more troubled? why? questions here and there. a pity that i cant understand people more.. if i can observe people more, perhaps i can help them more. but.. why do they have to carry this burden themselves? wont sharing make it an easier job? sigh.. sometimes i pity people around me. if, they could only take things lighter. it couldmaybemake them happier. but, they arent me. and the world wont stop spinning. so.. it'sonlyup to them to learn how to let go.

UPSET mindset...

2004-10-03T23:01:00.000+08:00

argh... it's like there's some idiotic problem with people today. what i did would somehow directly or indirectly become an eyesore.. bloody!! hateful people!! someday i'll be hating people and making my life downright miserable!!! ~cooling off~ but.. what is so dammit wrong with people? cant they stop caring too much at a certain point? i like taking my own sweet time. what's wrong with it? and i hate it when people are nagging non stop.. makes me so fedup!! darn darn darn!!!!! -very pissed off-

PAIN~~**

2004-09-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

ouch-y day for me... argh.. fell down below my flat!! scratched my knee. wasn't that bad and painful right after i fell.. i managed to walk to school on time with my wounded knee.but now.. it is so damn pain!!! god!! i don't know how can i bathe later.. it is gonna hurt SO MUCH! eeks.. bloody scene. makes me think of happy tree friends... haha. hmm.. tomorrow surveying ann's pacae for after-o use. we're gonna party!! and the BO's are gonna organise it.. as ann has said.. CLASS UNITY! Woompa!~ muacks. signing off.. and yes.. my results sux like hell. bleahZ.

^_^ happi~* off day.

2004-09-27T13:09:00.000+08:00

haha.. lazy me.. had my day off today. not schooling for me today!! LOL. have to go read through my physics and chemistry later.. still have the final science paper, MCQ. so happy...~!! maybe because i'm catching a movie with my peeps.. LOL. so happy. ^^ you bet i'll be smiling a whole day tomorrow. sigh.. had some really sad news.. my relatives are going to taiwan.. in november. during my o levels!!! hateful. it's gonna be the 2nd time i'm missing out fun!! 1st is that horrible japan trip, now. taiwan trip.. argh!! why do they have to go only this year? how a bout next year? then i can go already!! bleahz!!! ~~!!

laze arnd... it's saturday tml!! ~*

2004-09-25T14:26:00.000+08:00

yay~!! it's gonna be the weekends already!!

[to Amath Students, good luck for ur paper!!]

wow!! few days to get all tired and relax!! soon... it's doom day...report card and exam strips... sigh...

[got into my cozy bed... *snuggle*] nite nite ppl... *yawnz*

siao dae wor...

2004-09-25T11:10:00.000+08:00

gotta type fast then scram off! i've got practically nothing to do online already. hmm... distant-cyber-illness perhaps... but i think that that's a good thing... somehow? gosh..! it's already my LAST 2ND PAPER~! and i'm so happy about it. but... still have the baka O's. (splash. cold water >_<"') going have my science mcq on tuesday. LOL. dont have to go to school monday!! gonna study for that mcq.. i want more ticks/ grades from that. (As_As) <-- overly excited over this[??] bleahZ. ha! i see one of the Bo Cooperation Privated Limited members. LOL. that's Raylene. i love my members!! like today.. we did something a little... MAD?? we bought the same design but different color backpack over at the minitoons. but... talking about this kinda make me a little guilty. cos bo liao paid for it 1st.. for all of us.. gonna return her $4.25 on tues..

PS: PROUD TO BE A BO COOPERATION PTE LTD MEMBER!! ^^V. love u!

:P tongue out!

2004-09-24T05:37:00.000+08:00

totally tired out and drained of my precious brain juices. had my emath paper 2 total. and.. it sux like hell. dammit raymond fong. there's like something really wrong with his head!! how could he set the questions so difficult?! bleahZ!! gonna work hard already!! my prelims are still going on.. but ending soon... ^^ (the only thing i'm happy about.) though these examinations thingy are really ending soon.. we've still got something called our o levels. and now.. people are going around asking about partying and all.. what's with it?! mad? or just some unlikable trend? argh. gonna study my science chemistry already. i've got nothing of it in my brains. signing off....

(P.S.: ppl!! do ur best k? best wishes frm me!!)

indecisive..

2004-09-22T09:06:00.000+08:00

weepz... i've been drain my brain juices for a suitable cosplaying character!! ah... choose which? i cant decide. initially, i chose jibrel. then switched to michael. now, jibrel again!! i'm getting mad already... somebody stop me!! oh. i give up. till it comes then. i'll figure a way to do that costume!! hmph.!

sinking. not meant to be depressing.

2004-09-22T05:49:00.000+08:00

LOL... after so long... i'm back to blogging. there was once i was so hooked on the the cyber... but.. i cut lines. now, touching it again. everything seems so distant. there was always this feeling of being distance away. from where? i don't know. but for sure that i may not belong. i just cant keep up with the relationships i form. a minute, i could be all warm hearted. by the next, i'll be ignoring people. haiz.. vulnerable relationships. sinking someday.

hard work paid off..

2004-09-21T06:55:00.000+08:00

hmm... just done with my velvet bloggie.. haha. well, had this inspiration of making it all look purplish when i first saw the pic. (my current background) it's a picture of jibrel from angel sanctuary.. and i absolutely love her!! she's the angel that "takes control" of the element, water. i did the layout myself.. but certainly, the credit to whom who drew the background is never forgotten!! i must really thank her!! she has such gothic drawings coming from the movement of her hands. (love u!! artist of angel sanctuary!!)

problem solving wk!

2004-09-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

well, this explains why it's been so long since i last updated. due to the examination period, it is crucial for me to abstain from cyber. LOL. lame. i still touched the computer. or.. many reasons. bored, lacking of entertainment. a lot happened this week. and... my friend is in serious depression. i'm bearing this deep hatred in this idiotic asshead. so what he made her happy once? he made her cried some many times. i swear he will not resolve this. he's doomed for lived! i bet he's been going around snuggling in girls!! fark him!

realization

2004-09-13T19:15:00.000+08:00

well... i came to realized that what's the real doing of posting entries in this blogger. it's not to report what i have done today. but about what i feel on that certain day. sigh... i think i've been not really sensible regards stuffs requring logical thinknig. but i know that i do not work anything with my heart or what. in some sense, i might seem that i'm contradicting myself. but, this is how i really feel and perhaps i'm just too confused. confusion here and there... so, maybe posting it can make it seem clearer. ^^ goneie~